430am daily special

Sigh, taking care of babies really not easy.


It must b my retribution. i have a easy pregnancy and a surprisingly relatively easy c-sec so when it comes to taking care of baby, i am really at her mercy. Though i have my mum and maid to help out, but i am quite hands-on. My mum will come by in the morn to bathe the baby and cook for me. After which, she will go back to take care of my niece and i will be left alone with the baby and the maid. As i am quite particular, i didnt let the maid help with the baby yet. i handle everything myself from feeding, making her sleep as well as changing diapers. Life is hard. :P

At nite it's worse... she literally treat me like a pacifier. She wakes up every other hour demand to be fed. Suckle for a few minutes, she will fall asleep not feeling full. After a few moments, she will "eh-eh" again and demand to be put on my breasts. I feel so much like a cow... Moo....inbetween all these feeds, we still need to change diapers for her. Poor hubby, i am sure he must be quite tire out especially he still needs to work the next day. The last feed at 430am is the worst. After feeds, her eyes will be wide-opened staring at us... demand to be carried and rocked... :( i've been waking up so early... boo-hoo.....worse than working man.....

Told my mum i am only going to have one kid.. dun think i can make it another round. Dun think i have so much patience... :( Sigh....

PS: gave my gal a nickname; "Xiao-Huang"... cos' of the jaundice, she looks quite yellow... heehee...

Challenges everyday

Life as a new mother is really not easy.

Not sure whether it's the fact tt Athena was only abt 37 ++ weeks when she decided to arrive upon the world. She has very severe jaundice. During my hospital stay, only had one day of UV treatment and her reading went down to 9.3 so we were allowed to brought her home. But 3 days later during a follow-up review, her reading went up to as high as 15.9... doc advised us to put her back to the UV treatment. Not sure whether it's hormones or maternal instinct but i cried buckets when i heard tt. As i'm keen to breastfeed, i decided to stay with her. Due to cost reason, we opt for a 4-bedded. Tat day was extremely stressful. As Athena will be only wearing diapers and put on a cover/eye block to protect her eyes. She keeps crying as she felt extremely uncomfortable .. when she cried, mummy here cried too... :( that was a tiring period... in the end, after discussion with hubby, we decided tt i will discharge and let baby stayed on so tt we wont disrupted the treatment with my breastfeeding. I took a painful decision to let the nurse feed her formula cos i didnt pump enuf milk for her. After i was discharged, i went on to pump some milk and ask hubby to bring to TMC...luckily she was able to go back after 2 days' of treatment.

Sigh... after this saga, i've been trying hard to breastfeed her. Not easy, mayb she didnt latch properly cos now one of my nipples is very sore. The other one is flat .. so she dun want it. During the day, she slept so much tt i have to try very hard to wake her up for her feeding. Each attempt is a challenge. Then today, baby has nappy rash. After much tot, i blame on hubby cos i started using the cheapo Fairprice wet wipes tt he bought recently today. Hopefully it goes away soon...

Seems tt i have new problems everyday... feeling really stressed. I dun think i will ever stop worrying abt her. As wat my sister will tell me, "welcome to motherhood".....

The day my waterbag broke.....2906

So much for my planning...

On 2906 (thurs nite), i felt Athena has been unusually active. was talking to hubby and mentioned that mayb she was trying to turn... hahaa....

I was already in bed... then felt weird and thot i need to pee.. Who knows, the minute i left the bed (luckily), water started gushing out from "down under"... i screamed for fabian who was having a conf call in study room and start going thru my mind a list of things i need to do. He came running and we called the emergency line for my gynae. Luckily, he was still in hospital. With a towel in-between my legs (u can imagine the awkward position), we made our way to TMC. Along the way, i felt some contractions but not strong. As i was hanging on in the car, i keep telling hubby that i am not ready yet... hahaa...

When we were there, i was attended to immediately as my gynae has given the nurses instructions. Moreover, if my baby still in breech position, the c-sec will have to b performed immediately. Everything become a blurry as hubby left me to prepare for admission paperwork and the nurses prep me for the birth.

My gynae came and check on me and baby. Yes, she's still breech so we have to perform c-sec immediately. I have earlier indicate that i will opt for epidural so that hubby can be with me and we will see baby once she's out.

Hubby left to wash and dressed up for the surgery while i was pushed to the operating theatre. I was introduced to the aesthetician and i prepared to endure my epidural shot. Heard from pp tt it's very, very painful. Surprisingly... for me, it wasnt.....At that moment, i felt scared as hubby was not with me. I was all alone and i started praying....when hubby came in, i felt much better and i held his hands tightly. By then the epidural has taken effect and i no longer able to feel anything on my lower half of my body and the operation began...

To be frank, the operation took only 15 min... my baby was out at 0132am.... but the cleaning up and stitching took longer. Hubby was told to leave with baby while my gynae stitched me up. Wat an experience!!

Here's some baby's pictures.....