To walk or not to walk???

Athena has needles at her bum, i swear! She cant sit still and is forever on the go. It's almost a nitemare to take care of her now. I was very sick last fri with flu and high fever. No choice but has to relay on maid and hubby to take care of her .... slept the whole day and was still feeling weak the next. Hence, i've been watching her at the side with the maid trying to catch up with her.

She's not crawling very well but boy, does she love to stand up and attempt to walk with her short stumpy legs. She will pull herself up on our low bench-like table and start touching all the things on the table. I never eat crabs during my pregnancy (yes, old wives' tales has it tt ut baby will be very active with her hands if u eat crabs during ur pregnancy), and yet..... sigh....so much for my sacrifice.....

Anyway, as i mentioned, she wants to walk, but this mummy not so keen to let her. Again, old wives' tales has it tt a bb gal shld delay as long as possible to walk as it symbolizes a good life and it means she doesnt really have to work hard/long in her life. So this mummy is in dilemma. Shld i let nature takes its course and it looks like she may b walking b4 she reaches one or shld i delay it... but i guess, looking at the way she gleefully smile at me as she "walk" to me, i dun think i can stop a tornado.... hahaahaa.....

A scare that shaved off some years of my life

3 days ago on tues, Athena rolled off from our bed. Dun asked me how it happen, but it did. I was downstairs reading newspapers while hubby put her to sleep on our bed and cornered every possible lobangs with pillows and beddings and he went to his study room to surf the net. Before we knew it, we heard a loud "Thump!" and when we rushed into the room, she's on the floor!!!! She cried quite a while and fall back to sleep. Based on our previous experience, we checked for visible injuries, none and decided to monitor her for 72 hours for vomiting or other signs.

Got a call from my mum yesterday tt Athena is running a high fever. Was concerned and started calling up those PDs ard my place to make appt for that nite. Apparently, alot of clinics are closed in the afternoon. Sigh... then got a frantic call from my younger sis. She told me to rush home as Athena has vomited 5 times!!!!! My heart dropped and i panicked. Started calling hubby and decided to go and see Doc Ong in TMC. I figured tt even if Dr Ong is not available, i can still visit other clinics at TMC. My concern is more that the vomit can be related to the fall while hubby think she got it from her cousin, my niece, Angel who has high fever on wed.

In any case, i wasnt going to take any chances. i rushed to TMC and tried to get a q-number from Dr Ong's clinic. I told the nurse on duty that it might be an emergency and was advised to go KK-hospital A&E instead. She said tt if it's truly an emergency, KK will be able to provide the services such as X-ray or scan more promptly. So, i rushed to KK again, meanwhile, called hubby who was on his way to pick up our gal to go KK instead.

In the end, KK staff nurse concluded tt it's highly likely due to virus infection rather than the fall. So we ended up queuing up to see KK's docs for almost an hour. And cos' of her vomit, doc wanted to observe her for another hour. She was given 15ml of glucose water every 15 min to ensure she doesnt puke. After all the hassle, we are finally on our way home at 7pm+++

She's still feverish and was as high as 39 degree last nite. I was so worried tt i couldnt sleep and keep waking up to check her temperature. This morn she's better and i decided to work from home to take care of her.... Sigh... motherhood is not easy at all........hoping she will be better soon else will bring her to see another PD tonite.... sigh.....

Is your heart big enough???

Went to a hen's party last sat... too bad i am still breastfeeding so i abstained from all the alcoholic drinks and didnt enjoy as much as i would be....Was having a conversation with one of my frens abt having a 2nd child.. hold on... in case some of you get excited, "NO" i am not thinking of having 2nd one now but more of feelings having a 2nd child. This topic came on as my beautician got pregnant recently, and her first daughter is only one month older than mine, and my 2nd sis and that fren are trying for 2nd one now.... hence the tots....

Basically there are 2 types of feelings abt the 2nd one... first of all, i am worried whether i am capable of loving the 2nd one as much as the first one.... cos' as most parents would know, the first one is always so precious and basically all ur love and concern are given to the first born, so can you love the 2nd one equally much and deep????

Secondly, will i feel guilty towards the firstborn as she is not the central of my universe anymore? Cos' i need to share my love and time with the 2nd child???

I run through my tots with my sisters over the weekend... my sister told me tis "you will be able to love the 2nd one as much. You will be amazed at how big your heart is and will be able to have enuf love for the 2nd one" Each child is special and you will be able to love all of them the same. As for guilt, u realize tt time management become critical and some tasks can be done with both child....so bottomline is;

"Your heart is BIG enough to love all the children tt one is going to have!"